So for a little context behind my pregnancy- I had been with my ex for 2 years and when I got pregnant he completely changed up. He was incredibly mean and found me to apparently be repulsive- even before I started showing . We broke up when I found out he was cheating on me when I was 23 weeks pregnant.

I (21F) met this friend (29M) on an app... For sex .. my intentions weren't at all to actually meet up with someone, and this particular app didn't have people just in your area, it was from all over the world . I was so lonely and horny and wanted to be complimented so I got on there. I wasn't expecting to meet anyone near me- I was just exchanging pictures and such- then I matched with someone who only lived an hour away. We started talking and he was incredibly kind and caring.

We planned to meet up a week from then (Friday) but he ended up messaging me on Wednesday and saying he was close to my area and really wanted to meet up so we did. I know that he knew I was pregnant- the specific topic never came up other than me asking him if he really was ok with me being pregnant- he didnt mind as he still found me attractive. And I asked if he had a pregnancy fetish- he said he'd never thought of it to know if he had one or not.

So the day we meet up I'm so so nervous- I feel huge and unattractive- even though he's reassured me- irl coukd be different. We met up in a parking lot and it was awkward at first. We ended up sitting in the front of my car and just had a conversation. He kept complimenting me and I could see him hard in his pants which made me wet. I asked if he wanted to sit in the backseat and we did- again it was a bit awkward at first but then he asked if he could kiss me. We kissed and he instantly felt up my breasts and rubbed my tummy. I could see a wet spot forming in his pants and that made me even hornier. We pretty much just made out with a little touching until without asking he pulled out his peen.. this is when I got emotional. I wanted to feel wanted but not by random men, I wanted nothing more than my ex to love me this way. I cried and he was still so kind even when I started rambling about my ex- since he stayed so kind and even gave me advice- I found myself immensely attracted to him despite being sad.

He took me out to dinner and from there he asked me back to his house... I went. Zero survival skills when I'm lonely apparently. I guess I knew exactly what was going to happen there but it still caught me by surprise. I got done with a shower and had borrowed his clothes. I walked into his bedroom and he asked me to sit on his lap. I did a bit shy , and he immediately started kissing me. It was barely a minute before he stuck his fingers in me- I was so shocked- I hadn't been touched like that in months and I almost came just from that stimulation.

It progressed almost instantly- he layed me down on my back and starting putting it in. I feel like such a slvt but I was so sex deprived I didn't even ask about a condom. It felt incredible. I'd been yearning for months to be treated like this. I was so horny and all I ever had were my fingers which were getting harder and harder to use as my belly got so big. He moved me into another position, doggy, and kept fucking me. The last position felt the best to me. He laid me on my side and fucked me that way while playing with my breasts and complimenting me. He didn't ask but he came in me and I felt so blissful that I didn't mind. We had sex another time a few hours later and when I woke up in the morning I sucked him off.

We met up a few times after that while I was pregnant and fucked and when I was postpartum I sucked him off everytime I seen him. I'm now 4 months postpartum but ultimately decided that I don't have the time to meet up and fuck him and now I'm a lot more emotionally recovered from my ex that I don't need that male attention anymore.

We still kind of talk - he always reaches out first. He often still tells me his fantasies of being with me and offers to buy me things and take me places but we're not exactly compatible any way besides sexual. I'll always appreciate him for making me feel wanted and beautiful when I was at my most sensitive and painful time in my life.